false spring

It snowed. It's sleeting. I ran 5k this morning in sleet. I think I am going to cough up a lung. They are predicting heavy snow for tomorrow. I better go grocery shopping tonight. I wouldn't want to have only ramen and oatmeal on hand in case I'm snowed in.

I can't wait to have this kind of weather again. I love the summer in Germany. I want it to be gorgeous and warm again. I can't wait for sunset at 2230.

spring fever

The weather has been fantastic all week. The weather shop is predicting snowfall for Monday, which would seem far-fetched, except that I have had to scrape the ice off my car windows every morning for around the last two weeks. But the weather is always gorgeous (for Germany) by mid-day. I am itching to get out and go shop, lie around in grass, drink margaritas while lounging in a hammock, and just be in the sunshine.

180

Yesterday I re-enlisted. Yeah, I did it. I enjoy my life. I love living in Europe and wherever the hell the Air Force sees fit to send me. I even love being deployed. I loved being in Baghdad when I was there because I felt like I was actually making a difference.
My career field is going through some changes as are a few closely related career fields. My plain old video documentation job is merging with broadcasting. I am very excited about that. I have always wanted to be a broadcaster. It's what I wanted to do from the get-go, but I was delayed for about 11 years. I always get what I want. Sometimes it just takes a while to come around.
I am trying to extend for an extra year here in Germany. I hope it gets approved. I want to move to Italy next, but I will take England as well. Now that I think about it, England would be pretty fun. I like the way it smells.

Decisions, decisions

A lot of options have been weighing on my mind lately. I've been forced to accept certain aspects of my personality, and while some of them aren't the prettiest, I know that I have to be who I am or else I am going to make some major mistakes. I am not reliable in romantic dealings, and I don't like making sacrifices on a grand scale. Little, everyday sacrifices, like letting a roommate have the master bedroom, cleaning the kitchen without being asked, or even forgoing a trip because someone else is sick are fine. Changing my life to suit someone else, stifling my outgoing personality, or giving up on my dreams are not okay.
I am re-enlisting, and I am saying good-bye to the S.O. I just can't belong to another person that way. I'd be kidding both of us if I said I could.